Hello Beautiful,
As I start to write about visibility I want to share my relationship over the past few years to it. Some days I like to be visible but only if I get to choose the angle, light, and have my own sense of "control" as to how others perceive me. And that fear of being seen and not liked for my truth, especially my body, has held me back in so many ways from my potential and where I want to go with my business and as a human. As I continue to choose my aliveness, my gifts, my passions, my purpose, my authenticity, I am faced even more every single day to play my edge with visibility. I am challenging myself to peek my head just a little further out of my shell, and crossing all my extremities that this isn't a game of whack a mole. I know that only by being visible can we share our true selves. So, here ye, is my first blog post to my new website.
So I ask you:
Do you ever feel afraid to be seen, like really seen just as you are?
Do you find yourself hiding behind filters, whether in pictures or by trying to control others perception?
Do you ever feel like you need to be perfect to start a venture or share yourself?
Have you second guessed yourself and not moved forward with or deleted something that you felt passionate about in service of staying in your safe zone?
Do you ever hide your body or feel ashamed of it?
Do you ever think that if you reach a certain goal or accomplishment then you'll be ready and worthy to shine?
If you answered yes to any of these, CONGRATULATIONS! we are both human and still really really lovable. These are the types of things I've noticed keeping me from allowing my fullness to be expressed and choosing to move forward with what I really want. I am choosing to love this part of me AND at the same time I am ready to expand past my comfort zone. One thing I have recently adopted and committed to is becoming curious as I face into my fears(which sometimes feels uncomfortable and sticky, but I know that through is the only way out) and asking questions like:
What is at the root of my fear? (and it's usually of not being liked or good enough)
How can I move this energy?
What would happen if I faced into this fear and did it anyway? (think worst case scenario, and the brain is a wild amazing machine, so buckle up)
What do I really want?
What makes me feel the most alive?
And then I come to the realization that others opinions do not dictate my worth or loveability. That what I really want is to express, and feel alive and free. That by moving, dancing, and stretching I am able to come back home to my physical body and ground. And often times when I think of the worst case scenario I would usually be doing myself the favor of "cleaning house" of those who wouldn't like the real me anyways or that I would be opening up space for deeper connection with the right people. What makes me feel the most alive? Being connected to my core, my essence, my truth.
I am inspired by the women who speak from their core and share their truth. This sharing has the magic to set us free.
My journey with visibility, that I am sharing here, has been a big part of the ways I serve and has been the inspiration for my fitness business. I truly feel in all my heart, that the old paradigm of "fix your body" and "perfect and hide parts of yourself" fitness is not working anymore, and I believe that truly being "physically fit" begins by meeting ourselves and our bodies where we are and allowing ourselves to be seen and to see our magnificence...
Which is why I am playing my visibility edge here, and excited to share with you that I currently have space in my schedule for new private clients. I offer one-on-one coaching in mindful movement, a different approach to personal training, where I hold space for your journey back to your body. Think of it like fitness from the inside/out. If you feel ready for something different, something nourishing, sustainable, and heart centered, I'd love to connect with you. Here's how I work it-if what I'm sharing above is speaking to you, I invite you to listen to that feeling and let's connect for a 30 minute no strings attached (phone call or in person meeting) to vision, connect, and see what's possible for you moving forward...my gift to you. I feel excited about the possibility of connecting, and supporting you and your body. Click the link to take the next steps.